I find myself at a loss for words when I read this passage.
26 For if we deliberately sin after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, 27 but a terrifying expectation of judgment, and the fury of a fire about to consume the adversaries. 28 If anyone disregards Moses' law, he dies without mercy, based on the testimony of two or three witnesses. 29 How much worse punishment, do you think one will deserve who has trampled on the Son of God, regarded as profane the blood of the covenant by which he was sanctified, and insulted the Spirit of grace? 30 For we know the One who has said, Vengeance belongs to Me, I will repay, and again, The Lord will judge His people. 31 It is a terrifying thing to fall into the hands of the living God!
Why do I continue to satisfy my earthly desires against His warnings? Why do I continue to do the things that I know He hates instead of doing the things that I know He loves? Even when I feel convicted, I do it anyway.
What does that make me? And don't say human! I am suppose to have new life in Him.
We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.
Forgive me for the ways that I have deliberately sinned against you and the Spirit of grace. I know that I am a sinner and I always will be this side of the Holy Place, but to do unholy things with the knowledge of the truth is a disgrace to my LORD. Forgive me LORD, and give me the strength to be holy in all that I do so that I may bring glory to you, the Father. This I pray, for I am blessed to be a blessing.
In Jesus' name, Amen